New Painting

For those interested, I have done a new painting that I posted on my other blog "blackbird fly." You can click on the link in the sidebar to see the pictures.

Another Little Change

For several weeks now I've been trying to decide what to do with my hair. I love having long hair, but my hair is so thin that it always looks unhealthy when it's long. So tonight I finally decided to "take the plunge." And when I say that, I don't mean getting married, and I DEFINITELY don't mean getting a swirly. Mom cut my hair. I figure I like it just as much when she cuts it as when I go to someone else to get it cut, only she does it for free. Thanks Mom!

For those who don't know, I'll give an update on my life. A few things have changed here and there. I was diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) and Agoraphobia in conjunction with the problems I was already having. The good thing is that it doesn't mean a whole lot, other than I now have a better vocabulary to describe my feelings. Both of my counselors were already treating me for BPD, so I won't have any major changes to my treatment (thank goodness!). These problems are difficult to deal with, but I am working hard to get back to school in the fall. I will be moving into LaJolla Apartments again, and hope that this time through I will have better success. We'll see. I'm excited to be back in my ward again. I think school will be good for me as well, though the thought of it scares me to death right now. I have a lot to do to be emotionally stable enough for school. And of course I have a lot of physical things to do in order to be ready. I've finally solidified my classes, though, so that is nice. I purposefully scheduled all my classes on Tuesdays and Thursdays. I will be tutoring throughout the week, and I will be tutored somewhere in there. The reason for planning things this way is so that if I have to come home I will have a much easier time of making that happen. I think a trip or two home during the semester would be a lot better than burning myself out to the point where I have no choice but to come home.

This summer has been good for me in a lot of ways, but I know that I have also been holding myself back in a lot of ways. I think school will help me to take several leaps forward. I have a lot of healing to do, and I think mostly what I need is time.

I will end for now. But I will try to post more often. As fall approaches more things will be happening that I can blog about. I hope everyone out there reading this blog is doing well. I love you all--family and friends. In the words of J.K. Rowling via Gred or Forge Weasley, "Keep each other safe. Keep faith."